Private Conversations
I actually finished one paper within 1 hour, and that was the last paper I had available to try out for the exams tomorrow. So, I’m basically quite free.
OK, I used shorthands in answering the paper, I didn’t draw the band diagrams, cos I drew a lot of them yesterday and band diagrams aren’t exactly the toughest diagrams to draw in the world. But I did go through the calculations, the writing process for the qualitative questions.
1 page of answers for 1 paper…
I realized that over the years, instead of trying to memorize all the answers to all possible questions for a paper, I focused on the thinking process of solving the questions. So all I ever needed was to memorize the equations and their uses.
I hope.
I mean, it sure is a safer way to spot questions and study for the questions, or to get tips from profs on what is coming out and what should be dealt with during mugging. But… hehe… I do things on my own, and I hate professors. haha… Professors don’t even want to be bothered with me, I guess.
Anyways, so I went for an early lunch, after which I went to the canteen to finish off the meal. There, Me1 was asking Me2 why I always choose places where few people go. You know, like the empty top deck as opposed to the livelier lower decks, or as above, go get tips and mug for papers like everyone else.
Me1, being a super egoistic ego, said, ‘I will have the whole playing field by myself.’
After all these years, I concluded that I am indeed a very selfish person. I want to have the whole row of seats, if not the whole cinema hall to myself, so I go for early morning sessions. I don’t want to be proven less capable of chao-mugging in papers, so I developed another way of studying.
ya… Point is not this.
I wanted to ask how many people out there engage in such private conversations with themselves every now and then. Not ‘brain deciding between 2 choices by listing out the pros and cons’, but actually imagined 2 Me in a debate (intellectual or not).
It’s a fine line, but I bet those who really had such conversations can differentiate.
Such conversations are good, no? All contents are just within the mind, so no 3rd party in the real world knows about it. In fact, I conduct more conversations in a day than I blog. haha… And what I blog was a fraction of what I talked about.
Conversations go in the direction the mind desires. But of cos, it requires a certain amount of discipline, I guess. Sometimes, I indulge in self-deception and continues in a conversation that only pacifies the weaker self. Other times, I kept changing the direction so I could get a totally fresh solution to problems in life.
ya…
Anyways, talk about blogging too much, Fred actually commented that reading one blog entry of mine exhausts him like reading one article. By ‘article’ I assume he referred to those academic articles, not some entertainment magazine articles ba, since he’s an academic.
I do feel flattered. muahaha!! It implied that my blogs incites the same amount of thinking as an academic journal!! woot! (I shall pretend and eliminate the fact that he did not consciously meant it that way lol)
For an ending, I shall thank God for putting me through another test of will.
You see, Indian Friend was being an irritating asshat yesterday, when she held a video conference without earphones. ie, she was having this conversation with 2 other indians (I assume 2, cos I could only differentiate the guy and gal voices) openly, in the lab, without consideration that other people in the lab were trying to study.
One gal left the lab, and another took to sleeping. I went to watch Kang Xi Lai Le.
That video conference lasted for nearly an hour (whole episode of KXLL, you think leh?), thereabout wasting 1 hour of my study time. I can’t be 100% sure she did this to try to chase me away so that she could take over the feng shui place, but I despise such inconsiderate acts.
I survived the ordeal, and was glad that I took the chance to have a rest. Nice. 
So God, if you really existed to put me to tests, please also make sure IF gets what she deserved in life, by virtue of the inconsiderate acts she committed all her life.
w00t!
