zenov is B+ Boy

Can’t Be Bothered to Give a Title Week

So fast 1 week le… I haven’t enjoyed myself… Yet so many presentations… 3… sianz… I practically rotted my days away for the past week.

oh well…

ZZGY Chapter 3 edited, Commentary added.

New posts from the past week:

2008/04/03 PAIN ~ ~

2008/04/03 Demise

2008/04/04 60

2008/04/05 Report

2008/04/05 Thinking…

2008/04/07 This Entry is Not Suitable for Thesis-People

2008/04/09 Withdrawal

2008/04/09 I Have an Idea

I was in a brooding mood all the way from PGP (like it’s a long way like that). You know, in the MTV mode.

My mind was whirling. I know it’s either I reject it with all my will, or I indulge in it wholeheartedly till it wears off.

25 years and I still don’t know which is a better way.

So on the way, I recalled an old song. A song I was so enamored with, during the height of the cold war with my family in sec school. It’s funny how I always have a non-couple-love interpretation for couple-love songs…

《插曲》

如果满足 如可满足 如若要催毁我眉目
而我极痛 而你未痛 但实际只当是节目

如果我哭 如真要哭 难道要开口说屈服
纯粹动作 未料有风 是否因此拼命歪曲

*i wanna fly! i wanna cry!
愈去隐藏 愈要破坏
如我愉快 完美状态 才令你存敌意破坏
如果了解 心中不快 问你可曾为我伟大
人太倦了 请你谅解 求能让我此后愉快

明知揭盅 仍加插曲 还未算真的最残酷
如继续痛 求再别碰 事实你早已下了毒
离开退缩 澄清接触 谁料你一早已辑录
寻我脉膊 为什快速 未知这是致命插曲

谁人愿痛完又痛 再追逐 公演过目
谁人又注意我不快 来回场合 总要被曲解

hmmm…

I don’t know why my mind has been swarming in pessimistic thoughts since yesterday.

I thought about my Future, and about the contrast between the Future and the Dream.

I thought about the reason behind the contrast.

I thought about promises unkept.

I recalled a bicycle as a birthday-cum-A-Levels present that never came. The one I owned came 5 years later, when I suddenly had the urge to go out and ride one back.

Paid with my own savings.

Actually, that was the only one that I remembered.

I forgot what was promised for PSLE.

And for the other years, they simply couldn’t be bothered.

T-shirts that went for HK$15 were all I ever got.

I wonder if I will ever have a PSP for graduating with a degree.

Or will I hafta buy it with my salary??