Dr House’s Way of Self-Torture
Back to talk more. Something remotely related to Dr House ba.
haha…
I realize the show is one of the most recent I watched that is packed with ethical, philosophical and emotional issues. I mean, why doesn’t Singapore have such shows?? All we have are politically correct shows that tell us abortion is bad, more babies are good, police catch thief and all bad people should die. Isn’t this world made up of people who traverse in the grey areas of life?
I mean, take 《金枝欲孽》 for example. When my sis asks me who the bad people were, I was like: I don’t know. All of them are just acting like humans.
It doesn’t mean that doing things with our needs in mind is bad and doing things that don’t agree with other people’s definitions is also bad.
Something like shit, which is useless since it’s an excretion of the body, but good cos it’s fertilizers for the plants.
Whatever.
Anyways, one topic that keeps popping up in the series was how House was torturing himself, making himself miserable. He was unwillingly to kick his addiction or show affection towards others, not cos he was really enjoying it, but it was cos he was used to it. Those stuff made up a big part of his life that if they were changed, he won’t be the House he used to be.
Which brings me to a topic that was inspired by xy’s comments on her blog. haha… Inspired, not that you said it, k?
People just love to equate work into chores. Even if they somehow love it, they love it see flaws in it. When they meet problems in work, they tend to dwell on it. They bitch, they wail, but it all boils down to the reluctance of solving the problem. Cos the problems do something to them. It could have been they earn more sympathy (or time and concern) from others, fulfills certain negative expectations of them, or gives them excuse to fault.
I can’t say I am good at solving problems in my work (think FYP). What with everybody trying to compare how drastic their FYPs have been, you know. I have to keep up and show them I suffer too. haha… It’s more like I feel more human to suck at doing things, rather than outperforming/outhardworking everyone else. I suppose. The harder I work, the higher the expectations people will have on me. The expectations will be endless, and will only end when I show them that I could not be up to expectations.
ya… This is my way of escaping from problems, I guess.
But people just put expectations and when I do make it, they never compliment me. CSC Day 07 was the hardest I worked on a project and yet only a few pathetic few came to say I did well. Those people also happened to be the ones I confided my stress to. Were they saying it out of sympathy or rationally? But given how nobody came to look for me in this years CSC Day, I just know that what I did was just peanuts and shit to them.
Whatever.
Anyways, my way of working round the problem was to think of the goodness of the peripherals of the work.
I like my lab not cos the systems are good. Just that they are less crowded than any other places in NUS and I would not be shooed. It’s comfortable enough and near food and toilets. Which is why I love working on everything from here. haha…
What else?
It’s actually quite funny that I always seem to have a lot of thoughts that seem to roll on forever and yet stops short when I put them down in words.
Funny…
